Sicky sick sick sick

I get sick alot. It is usually a mild case of the sniffles with a sore throat and a lil cough. But this is brutal, this is like a tsunami is trying to erupt my rib cage. Constant sneezing, either a pouring nose or its stuffed so bad that I can't even muster a nose breath, and my lips are so cracked and dry from mouth breathing its unbearable. And no drugs. Nada.

I have been getting night sweats and chills, but no temperature of any significance so the babe is fine. Its just me thats suffering without a decongestant or a nice night cap to wipe me out. I tend to rely on motherrisk.org for my safety of drugs information. The few drugs I have been wondering about as of late, do not make the cut on their website which gives me the impression that I shouldn't risk it. I can withstand a week of frazzled headaches and dripping snot if it means my babe won't come out with one arm or one lung or worse no lungs at all. Its the unknown that is scary. I am sure it would be fine to take a swig of oil of oregano, or a tylenol cold and flu just one night, but what if that one night is just too much for the babe, what if its at a key moment in it's development and it flips a switch the wrong way and everything goes wrong? It is the unknown that makes it not worth it. I think perhaps I am starting, already, to put this lil one before me.

In just seven days we find out the gender of this babe. Some people are shocked that I am interested in finding out, that I am somehow killing the surprise. As if finding out if it is a girl or a boy kills the surprise, it is a baby, that is a surprise enough! Plus we need five more months to argue over names and toys and clothes and colours. And I can't spend the next five months writing "it" or "he/she" or "the babe", I'd rather know and simplify my writing at least. To conclude, I hope that one day he or she or it or the babe will thank me for not taking tylenol cold and flu. For saving it's life and sacrificing my breathing, decency, energy and public appearance. Over-dramatic much.