Pro Choice

I nearly forgot to mention the enormous discussion that consumed my day. Today we discussed abortion, again. We have battled with the decision to forever alter our lives in ways we have yet to predict, quite possibly good. Or to end it now and plan new trips, live vicariously and be youthful just a little bit longer. I looked up abortion clinics and held the phone intending to call and ask for counseling. But I knew I would tell them I didn't want an abortion and they would tell me I had my answer. I looked up pregnancy crisis services of Vancouver but realized this wasn't exactly unplanned, I was aware of my options and I wasn't in a harmful relationship. Really, they wouldn't have anything to counsel me on. I was simply looking for someone to hold my hand and decide for me. This is not going to happen anymore. Considering counseling gave me my answer, I don't want an abortion. I don't want to call a number to argue with a person who tries to convince me otherwise. I have already decided. I am politically pro-choice but I am against it on a personal level. I could never do it myself, however, I hold nothing against anyone who chooses that route. After 24 hours and three months of debating, we have decided to continue on this journey (after longer heated discussion with Boy aka partner). But we won't continue in the indecisive manner with which we have arrived, we are certain now. We are going to have a baby. And this is a good thing.